I’ve been freaking out a little bit the later part of this week. We have our home study visit this coming Tuesday, but that’s not what’s freaking me out. Jess spoke to Lauren, our social worker at AFTH and they were discussing our profile key. The profile key is the next step for us and it is where we tell the agency the specifics of what sor tof child we are looking to adopt. The key covers everything from ethnicity, mixes of ethnic background, parents mental history, methods of conception (rape, incest, etc.) and levels of drugs used during the various 3 trimesters. We are pretty sure we know how we will officially fill out the key but are doing more research to be sure. I guess Lauren asked Jess if we were open to adopting a baby of mixed race and Jess said yes, because we are. Lauren said that after Tuesday we could get a call at any time. Did you hear me? Any time! The more open adoptive families are to a wider selection on hte adoption key, the more babies are available. We don’t want to compromise what we feel in our hearts as far as the health and background of our baby, but wow, this could really happen soon.
So, needless to say, I am freaking out a little bit. Our Nursery is painted, and that’s it. It’s completely empty and we hadn’t planned on furnishing it for a little while yet.

The front of the house, so much sunlight in the morning.

See, even the closet is pretty empty, except 39 infant diapers. (Jess put one on the Teddy Bear)

Baby’s excape route.

That’s the corner where I’ll be building a window seat/toy chest and we’ll be painting a mural on the wall.
So, that’ll all be taken care of and I’m not going to make myself crazy. I’m also a little freaked out at just how quickly and smoothly this entire process has been. Oh yea, and at the fact that one of my biggest dreams ever is about to come true. And the fact that I have no clue how much this will truely affect my life (in an absolutely amazing way).
This weekend will probably be spent doing the little fix-r-up things around the house that I’ve been putting off since we moved in as well as putting more shelves in the baby’s closet. I’m sure Jess will talk me into going shopping for baby stuff. Those pictures above won’t stay naked for long.
I’m not really freaking out, I’m just amazingly excited at the possibility of having a baby so damn soon. I can’t wait for Jess and I to be parents. It’ll be great.